I am content.

I learned a new word today, "contentment."

Derived from two latin words, "con" and "tenio". This word means, "to hold together."

Knowing this, this scripture takes on more meaning to me,

"I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to be plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:12-13

Life itself presents many uncertainties and inner struggles. Being rich and satisfied doesn't guarantee contentment. Being on top isn't always comfortable. There is the nagging fear of falling down hard.

My husband and I are now in a very uncertain phase of life called, "job hunting." Despite my career background, there is always a fear of not getting the job I want. Moreover, there can be anxieties of what the future holds.

This is a time to muster the strength to have inner solidity, contentment. This is when I need to hold together in order to keep calm and peace despite life's uncertainties. I am grateful that I have a great God who I can always turn to for strength and hope. That is what the scripture says, "I can do everything through Him who gives me strength."

Deep inside I know that I am where I am because God has designed me to be here. And being in my shoe right now is beautiful. I know that God has allowed Joe and me to go through the roller coaster ride of life because we have important roles to fulfill.

When I think about that greater purpose, I start collecting inner peace. Somehow I know that God does not mess around with His children's lives. He always work things out for the good of those who love Him.

Someway, somehow, I will be lifted up and I will find myself in the perfect place where God wants me to be.

I am content.